Does anyone else feel a sense of overwhelm about how much information we ‘should’ know. I am constantly walking into situations where I feel less knowledgeable about current affairs, the latest coaching trends, the latest music (we could delve into whether I am less knowledgeable or whether that’s in my head, but I think that is another blog!). Sometimes I find it difficult to know where to start. I was heartened to hear a colleague tell me that she deleted a podcast recommendation from a friend – not because she wasn’t interested, in fact she thought it sounded fascinating, but because she knew that given everything else, she didn’t have the capacity to listen to it. It’s taken me a long time to be ok with dipping into random episodes from a podcast series. The completist in me used to struggle with this but I realised that I was unlikely to ever get through every episode and, more importantly, not all episodes were of interest to me. What I consume needs to be serving me. I notice that sometimes I embrace learning new things whole heartedly and other times I am more resistant – is that because it’s too hard, I’m fine as I am, I’m scared, I have no interest, or I’ve got distracted? We owe it to ourselves to remain curious so what’s the answer in a world of information overload? Think about how you find meaning, your values and what makes you come alive and which content can support that Be more conscious about the information that you would like to consume. Where does your focus lie – is it current affairs, trends in your industry, purpose-driven, general knowledge or something to bring you joy? All of these are valid - it’s knowing what you want Know yourself and how you best consume information. It took me a long time to realise that I consume complex issues better when it’s audio rather than written. I also value time away from screens so I still love a paper book as I engage with it differently Think about which sources will be best for your information – in the case of something like current affairs, you may choose multiple sources to give you a balanced view Schedule time and be more mindful about what you would like to do in that time. Endless scrolling can mean at the end of an hour we haven’t looked at anything intentional. If I see an interesting article, I make a note and save it for my scheduled time rather than feeling the pressure to read it immediately I learnt a concept a few years ago about time being elastic – if you have an hour free before a meeting, you often perceive the first 30 minutes to be more productive than the second 30 minutes. Use what you know about the time you have and your energy levels to schedule accordingly Remember that multi-tasking is a myth. If you are trying to focus on two things at once, one is probably suffering. Decide where your focus is at any one time Be conscious about the harder stuff that you’d like to learn but that might take more coaxing. I know I need to understand AI more and I have been resistant because of the unknown. My solution is to ask a friend to help me rather than me searching online and feeling more overwhelmed on top of the fear Sprinkle joy amongst the harder stuff – I love listening to comedy podcasts and new music. If friends are talking about something you don’t know about, have the courage to ask them to tell you more – you might learn all you need over dinner, rather than spending that time being anxious and faking your knowledge Remember that it’s ok to say no, even if something sounds brilliant. None of this should be at the detriment of your own wellbeing. Know your limits and know that you will have to make value choices about the information for you  Most of all remember that being curious and learning new stuff is really fun so let’s find a way to still love it rather than making it feel like a chore.

It’s January and lots of you might be thinking about whether you have made the right resolutions for the year. I find the word resolution so cut and dried – it’s defined as “a firm decision to do or not to do something”. No wonder we feel a strong sense of failure when we don’t manage to keep up our resolutions. Instead, I like to think about making intentions and forming healthy habits to help me get there. And it’s totally ok to change those habits to find a way that will fit comfortably with the rhythm of your life. The key is to be self-aware and know whether you are avoiding something slightly challenging or scary, or whether there is genuinely a good reason for changing that habit. My intention for this year is to take on a big swim and to get there I have upped my training. Whilst I’m excited about the swim, I am also really scared and it triggers my old narrative of ‘I’m rubbish at sport’ and in turn, my embarrassment doing sport around other people. Last week I found myself considering cancelling a swimming training session and I stopped to reflect and ask myself why? Did I need to change the time because of other important commitments or was it because I was fearing the session and looking for an excuse to cancel? I realised I was anxious about the session and there was no other good reason to cancel. I sat with the fear, I sat with the discomfort, and I thought about how good I would feel at the end of the session. More importantly for me, I reminded myself that I wouldn’t have even considered going to a session like this 3 years ago. I am swimming in higher circles than before and sometimes I don’t give myself credit for this. The path to growth means we constantly put ourselves in discomfort, then get more comfortable and aim for the next big thing and face the discomfort again. We often forget how far we have come and don’t take the time to celebrate the successes along the way. What did I learn from my session? This is my session and no-one else’s. I have to set my own targets and be honest with myself afterwards about my successes and what I would like to work more on I often have imposter syndrome and the fear that other people are judging me for being too slow. After the session I realised that I couldn’t remember a single thing about anyone else’s technique, so I doubt they can remember anything about me! Most people are concentrating on themselves in those situations I always think I am the only one worried about something and yet whenever I share this, I realise that I am not alone. Being more vulnerable with others has helped me form stronger relationships and embrace my fears Kindness is an important part of my life and yet I don’t always consider how harshly I am judging myself – talking to myself as I would support a friend helps me to encourage myself, celebrate how far I have come and know when to push myself more I know that my habits work best when they are things I want to do rather than things I feel I have to do. I wanted to do this session, even if I did feel the fear, because I enjoy learning, getting fitter and the positive impact on my mental health There will be discomfort but when I analysed it, I realised that most of that discomfort was my limiting beliefs rather than anything tangible stopping me doing it I know I need flexibility, so I have picked sessions where I have flexibility each week to fit around my other commitments I need to be self-aware and honest with myself about why a habit is not embedding itself successfully – Is it the wrong time? Am I really interested in doing this? Or is fear getting in the way?  And for me personally, I need to remind myself that every swim I have ever done has made me happier, stronger, braver and better equipped to conquer the world.

As we approach the end of the year, we find ourselves reflecting on the last 12 months. Personally, it has been a year with a lot of joy, particularly in terms of travel, and yet there has also been so much not knowing. I’m used to the not knowing but this has felt like a longer, more uncomfortable period. But here’s the thing, if we don’t go through those periods of discomfort and not knowing, we don’t open ourselves up to new opportunities and places to grow. I learnt this year that I have to sit with stuff longer, listen to my heart, try new things and remind myself that I don’t yet know the right path. Part of the journey is going through the rough bits. I knew that this needed to be a period of change and that requires the work to get there. I am reminded of when I left university and didn’t fancy a job as a management consultant or accountant. In the 90s there seemed to be no other advice for economics graduates, but I knew there would be something out there that I would love. It was 2 years after graduating that I discovered the world of events – 2 years felt like a lifetime yet 25 years on, I still love it. It was worth the discomfort and exploring till I found something that made me come alive. There is so much social pressure to do the job that you ‘should’ be doing, to live the life that follows a certain pattern and as a result, we don’t always take the time to explore what is right for us. Through these periods of growth, I’ve learnt that I need to be reflective, but I also need to surround myself with friends and activities that bring me joy. And while these periods of wintering can feel difficult, by sitting with it, by working through it, I have emerged feeling energised and more purposeful about the path ahead. As you reflect on your year and look forward to 2025, have a think about: What can I learn from the hard stuff that has happened What can I celebrate How can I hold my nerve when everyone around me seems to be living the perfect life (spoiler alert – they’re not!) What do I need to flourish and come alive Who in my life can support me on this journey without judgement and with love How can I embrace uncertainty and stay open to the opportunities ahead It is a running joke amongst my friends that I am always early for things. I always say this is because I find it stressful if I am late and it feels disrespectful. But there is another reason for leaving early – giving myself those minutes in the day creates unexpected moments and connections. By building flex in my day, I allow for that chat after swimming, to stop and admire nature, to have a fleeting chat with someone, to read an article that sparks a new idea, for the magic to happen. We are all left to our own devices and can feel pressure to take a certain path, but we can influence the route, try things out and create space to energetically connect and find out what makes us come alive.  I love this quote from Cory Allen “The more you can live the life that feels right, instead of the one you feel is expected from you, the happier you’ll be”.

I’ve just finished a course on Ikigai – the Japanese concept of your ‘reason for being’. It is the intersection of four areas - what you love to do (passion), what you are good at (skills), what the world needs (mission), and what you can be paid for (profession). I love this concept and yet I feel that lots of people think that finding it must be pipe dream. My experience was incredibly inspiring, showing me that we can all take steps towards it and I wanted to share my reflections. Our inner critic is quick to come out but how often do we spend time thinking about what we are good at. Do take some time to understand yourself and the value that you bring. If you are prone to being modest, why not ask colleagues and friends what strengths they think you have In our busy lives, we can be guilty of not being conscious with our decision-making. Having an Ikigai statement as a guiding principle can help us follow a fulfilling path. Even if we make decisions that are not fully in line with where we want to be, being conscious about them makes it easier to make peace with it I learnt a lovely phrase ‘benevolent assertiveness’ – learning to say no to things kindly without feeling guilt or shame. I’m reminded of reading Sarah Knight’s “The life-changing magic of not giving a f**k” which taught me to pause before making decisions and check that I did things that were in line with my values and how I want to live my life It reminded me that life is a constant balancing act and it’s ok that things can feel out of kilter but the more we can be aware of this, the easier it is to manage our emotions and our self-care Through the process I have learnt what my non-negotiables are in terms of values. If I am triggered in a situation, it is often because my non-negotiables have been compromised and this helps me understand my reactions There is always something I can do each day to move me towards living a more connected life – whether that’s breathing, swimming, connecting with a friend, coaching or journaling. The key is in how we embed those healthy habits. Some of my habits like swimming are so embedded, others are newer and taking time to bed in. It’s all about finding something that fits with your life Our reason for being is constantly evolving, so take time to evaluate and see what’s important for you at any moment in time Ultimately, think about what makes you come alive as you are likely to have the greatest impact  I love this quote from Howard Thurman which I live by, “ Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who come alive”

I’ve just come out of a busy few weeks of work. It is very easy in those times to wish away the days and weeks in search of a more balanced way of being. But life is rarely the balanced nirvana that we dream of. Whilst there were a few moments where I wished I had more hours in the day, I also noticed a few wonderful things about this period: My wordle scores improved with a huge spate of 2s – perhaps there was something about me being in the zone and focussed and needing to get it done quickly! I still managed to swim a lot. We say we are too busy to fit things in, but can often find time for the important stuff. Perhaps some of what we can’t fit in isn’t right for us? I was more aware of what I needed each week to connect with myself and others. Being busy made me prioritise what I wanted and needed and that meant that those moments of connection were very meaningful I scaled back social commitments to allow myself time to recharge but occasionally realised I needed that connection – this led to some impromptu meet ups and the joy in deciding to meet someone on the day is just lovely I enjoyed the adrenalin rush and the sense of achievement – good stress can be a helpful thing in giving you the impetus to get things done I was able to identify the areas of work where I particularly thrive. In moments of high stress, it is good to reflect on the things that are going well  Life is a constant journey and rarely quite goes the way we might expect so if we can welcome the waves, we might just find moments of energy, joy and clarity as we ride them.

Last week I was happily ticking off on my habit tracker how many times I had swum and yet again I had hit my target. If you’re like me, there is a dopamine hit from ticking something off and feeling a sense of accomplishment – I know I’m not the only one to add something to my list just so that I can tick it off! However, I realised that my habit tracker needs to evolve. Swimming has become part of who I am. It is more than a habit, it’s an essential part of my week and my whole being. The only time I don’t swim is if I am sick or away and not near water! There are other habits that I haven’t fully adopted and that’s where my energy needs to lie if I want to continue to grow.  It's easy to set up goals or habits and when we reach them, we plateau for a bit as we are happily achieving what we set out to do. I’m all for celebrating our successes and in fact we don’t celebrate enough. Yet I know that there are other habits that are proving more difficult for me, and I’m guilty of riding the wave of knowing I have swum and walked 10,000 steps to mask the fact that some other habits have fallen by the wayside. I am trying to be more creative and to learn and grow as a coach. These two habits haven’t been as easy to embed perhaps because creativity can take many forms and it’s not as easy as deciding to swim in the morning. I’m also experimenting with what works for me. I know audio learning like podcasts suits me particularly when it’s something that I would like to absorb and reflect on. I am trying out different ways to incorporate this into my week and seeing which ones suit me, my lifestyle and can adapt depending on the week’s commitments. It’s not as satisfying as I’m not getting the satisfaction of ticking off every week, but I do learn something about what I’m enjoying or what is working for me and how I might want to adapt that going forward. So we could stay in our comfort zone and feel smug about the things we are automatically doing for our mental, physical, spiritual and emotional health or we could think a little bit harder about where to devote our energy to move one step forward to living a life with purpose. Where will you put your energy this week?

I’ve just read Do/Conversation by Robert Poynton. I was fascinated by the exploration of the complexity of conversation. He said “Conversation thrives on variety and no one does it quite like you. The aim isn’t to become good at conversation, it is to become good at being you, in conversation.” I LOVE this – so often we go into conversations with egos, agendas and feeling like we need to ‘win’ or be right. It can feel like a competition to get one up on the other person. There’s an exercise I run in workshops, where in pairs, one person talks about a passion and the other person can only affirm or repeat back what they hear – they are not allowed to add to it or talk about themselves. Every time I do it myself, I realise how quick we are to turn things around to be about ourselves and our own experiences. We think we are adding value by giving our perspective but is that always the case? Sometimes friends / colleagues do want advice, but more often we could be more present, listen more attentively and give them our full attention. Noticing what is said can take a conversation somewhere you never dreamed of going. I used to be the first person to speak up in a workshop because I wanted to fill the silence. It took me a long time to realise that silence is where the magic happens. To hold the silence can be so powerful and allows time to reflect, pause and formulate thoughts. Being more comfortable in that silence is very liberating. I was also reminded in the book of the importance of connecting and conversing in different ways with different people depending on what the purpose of the conversation is. I have a WhatsApp group with 5 university friends that started as a holiday. Through lockdown it became our daily check-in where we share a song that brings us joy. For all of us, it has become an important daily ritual to know that someone is there thinking of us. I love it because it feels like a group of friends that live together – we drop in and out of chat particularly because of time zones. You don’t have to participate in the conversation but if you need someone, they will be there for you. With other friends, we rarely WhatsApp but then pick up the phone and chat for hours. And conversations with strangers in the park can lead to great friendships and holiday buddies – I know from my own lockdown experience! It can feel daunting walking into a networking event or a party where you know no-one but embracing it and finding a way to connect with someone is a thing of beauty. Evidence suggests people are more open to random conversations than we anticipate – we just have to get over that initial moment of discomfort. And there are so many ways to do it. I remember being at a lunch where I was amazed how my colleague barely revealed anything about himself but fired a lot of questions at our lunch guest. If you are feeling nervous, the best thing you can do is listen, show interest and ask questions. I always come alive when someone is passionate about something, no matter what the subject matter. Most of all, if you go into conversations with a generous mindset, there is always something lovely that can happen – maybe you can change the course of someone’s day for the better. As Robert Poynton says “Conversation is a musical thing, like jazz or birdsong: more ‘call and response’ than question and answer. It enables us to travel great distances, but the joy is in the journey not the destination”  So how will you connect with someone today?

I was recently telling someone that I have the fear every time I speak in public, and they were surprised to hear this. It’s something I know about myself and I also know that once I relax and get into it, I get a real buzz and enjoy myself. The difference between now and 10 years ago is that I am acknowledging those feelings and understanding they are part of who I am. Rather than pushing them away and pretending they don’t exist. I like to reframe my fear as evidence that I care, that I care about doing the best I can and having a positive impact. In Gestalt coaching, we talk about anxiety being suppressed excitement and I think it is just that! We can stay in a zone of comfort but we would miss out on so much and just because there are difficult emotions, it doesn’t mean we shouldn’t do it. If we want to grow and be curious, we have to step into discomfort. As Susan David says, “Only dead people never get unwanted or inconvenienced by their feelings.” So we need to be with those feelings and work out what they’re telling us. In my own journey of self-awareness, I am more aware of my feelings – I feel them deeply, see them as data and know that this is a natural part of life. I recall many years ago, I went to an induction at my local reservoir. We were asked if anyone was anxious and my hand went straight up whilst a room full of triathletes sat there looking unphased. I have retold this story several times, and everyone says to me, of course some of them were scared, they just didn’t want to admit it. In acknowledging my emotions, being vulnerable and admitting how I feel, it can feel isolating and scary but the more I do it, the more I invite others to be more open and vulnerable and the better the connection is. And what would life be without those amazing connections! We could remain comfortably numb but we would miss out on the full richness of life. If we acknowledge what we are feeling, we can also think about what we can do to prepare ourselves, whether that is physical, mental or emotional preparation. So how can we embrace those emotions more fully and ensure we still push ourselves If I’m scared about something I love like an open water swim, it’s easy - I can imagine how amazing I will feel afterwards! Sometimes it can be helpful to know which bit is causing us discomfort. With public speaking, I tend to ensure I know my opening well as then I relax into it and the rest just flows I also think about what’s stopping me doing something and how I can counter that Or maybe it is just plain scary but if you don’t give it a go, you’ll never know. What’s the worst that can happen I find it helpful just to focus on myself and try to stop worrying about what others are thinking about me – most of us are with our own emotions so not interested in the other person! Mostly I think about how I’d like to live my life and what makes me come alive and if this is moving me in the right direction, that I know I should give it a go  So what’s the one small step you can take today to be a bit braver and live life to the full?

I am in a period of change in my life and despite knowing that amazing things come from change, it can still feel unsettling. Last week I found myself flitting between activities because I didn’t know where to start – things felt a little overwhelming. What did I learn from this? Multitasking does no one any favours! Constantly moving between tasks only meant that my brain was continually switching and nothing was getting done well. I took a moment to step back and focus on what was important to achieve that day. I’ve started to look at how I can carve out my day more effectively I know from previous moments in my life that it can be difficult to stay motivated when you are in a new business phase. Tangible success takes time and for me that is the best way as it means I have built a meaningful relationship. However, I know that I thrive with some weekly targets, whether that’s networking, writing, proposals or updating my LinkedIn Celebrate the good stuff – last week when I was wondering why I am trying to move into a different workspace, I had a lovely reminder from someone I mentored 12 years ago about the impact I have had on his life and career. It reminded me why I do what I do Honour the emotions – I listened to myself and gave myself time and space to process the difficult emotions. I spent a long time in life, suppressing difficult emotions and in the last 7 years I have seen the value of sitting with those emotions and using them as data to learn and understand what I need in that moment I had to remind myself that the reason I am moving into a different phase is because I want to live fully and in line with my values and purpose. I have looked at my values and purpose in the last few weeks and realised that what I do is all about Connection :  Connection is at the heart of everything I do – connection to myself, my purpose, those around me and the world. I connect with kindness, creativity, integrity and respect. When I fully connect, I come alive and have the greatest impact in what I do. I help people connect to themselves, their purpose, their colleagues and their business as an Executive Coach, Consultant, Facilitator and Group Coach. I am particularly passionate about deepening self-awareness and improving emotional intelligence, which comes through in my blogs, speaking and workshops. I help people connect creatively with their audiences through events. I have run complex events and projects for corporate, governmental and charitable organisations ensuring what we do is always connected with your aims and objectives. I thrive on building communities through managing senior and varied stakeholder groups, as well as mentoring and inspiring teams. I am responsible for running strategic, operational, financial and creative areas of the business and I am very comfortable troubleshooting challenges along the way. I connect with my community by volunteering at WeSwim disabled swimming club, as a trustee at the Thames Festival Trust and a volunteer mentor for Creative Access. I connect with myself through my swimming - I love it! I am a keen open water swimmer and encourage everyone to find their own time each week to pause and reset. Connection is how and where I thrive. And when I was feeling overwhelmed last week, I realised that the only thing I needed to do was to fully connect – with myself through swimming and writing, with my friends through nourishing chats and hugs and with my business through pursuing opportunities to work where I can help people live with a greater purpose. It’s not rocket science yet in our busy lives, we often forget how to get back in tune with ourselves.